As a mental health blogger I’m a part of a community that addresses the topic of mental health in a large variety of creative ways. Dark and upsetting times are transformed into gorgeous pieces of art, films
or bitching in a depression blog in order to raise awareness and encourage others to come forward with their stories.
This is where Edinburgh-based alternative rock band Hinks comes in with their new song and its accompanying film, Fabric. Their singer Jack Hinks wanted to hear my opinion about the song (I don’t know why either), so I’m now a * ~ srius music crtic ~* as well.
I’ll start off by saying that mental health awareness isn’t the easiest subject to transform into a film, largely because it’s something nobody else can see. The individual experience of any mental illness is extremely subjective but the stunning video accompanying Fabric taps into imagery that I can relate to as a person living with a mental illness.
In ‘Fabric’ the dancer and a white cloth representing her start off as untarnished but then they’re broken at the seams and sewn together again. Like recovery, which is never a straightforward process, following the ultimate collapse there are going to be blips and patching up and that’s the uncertain and fragile reality of mental illness and recovery.
The young woman gets pulled into dark, suffocating waters which I can relate to as at its most serious my depression has made me feel like walking in water, with my limbs heavy and breathing impossible, my ears about to explode from the pressure and my lungs screaming for air.
The young woman on the video doesn’t have control of the water either. She tries to get out but ultimately she has to fight for her life against the darkness. This is what anyone faced with a mental health issue has to endure and overcome. There is nobody else on the video except one person. Like the dancer portrays, mental health issues are by their nature a very lonely battle and something that many people have to go through alone in both mental and physical sense.
Still, this wasn’t my dominant feeling after listening to the song. I started thinking about the alterations mental illness makes on you. After being ripped apart and broken at the seams only to be sewn back together again as you try to recover and keep it together, you may come out looking fine but will never be the same again. In some cases the illness or condition is permanent, or like in my case, will have to be conscious of it for the rest of their lives.
Anyone who’s experienced depression knows that they have an increased risk of it returning. Like a person with cancer, even after you’ve been cleared there is still a possibility of the illness flaring up and infecting you all over again. You must live your life free of the weight of the illness but at the same time you will always have to be conscious about your personal warning signs. It’s a constant balancing act. It’s not fair, and neither is it right but it’s still something that has to be accepted.
That’s why I really like this song. Not only does the video do a great job at conveying one interpretation of life with mental illness, it also contributes into creation of a social space in their own way where talking about these issues is no longer shameful. Where the weight of water might just be lifted.
You can watch the video here:
For more information, visit: https://www.jackhinks.co.uk/
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